Day 217

I believe I am dealing with a little toddler "missing daddy syndrome"

Couple that with the jealously of baby sister

And we got some fun times rolling in over here

His tantrums

and crying

and hitting

and kicking

and yelling

and disobeying

have quadrupuled since dad left again

His fake baby cry is about to drive me insane

If i see him throw himself on the floor one more time for no real reason

I just might lose it

And that hard part is that I know a lot has to do with dad being gone

And I have ZERO clue how to fix that

I'm caught between feeling bad for him and just being annoyed

Part of me wants to baby him becuase I feel bad

Then I realize it is something he has to deal with

And he can't go through life throwing tantrums because life throws something at him he dislikes

Rock and a hard place

Wish I knew how to make it better

I half say that for myself

cause him being better would make mommy MUCH better

But mostly it hurts my heart to see my little 3 year old hurt too