Day 203

Nothing exciting today

We went swimming ...just us

Our normal playmates were sick

It wasn't as much fun without my adult time included

Thought about going to the store

Thought about making cookies for the hubby

Thought about getting christmas presents

And ultimately did none of that

I guess there is always tomorrow

Day 202

Normal day again

Preschool

And library

And naps

Our day was normal

Our skpe call tonight had a different twist

Of hubby coming home a little early!

I miss him so much right now

It would be so nice to see his face sooner then planned

But as he reminded me

Not to get my hopes up

I reminded him

Until I saw his face in person

I never counted on anything involving the military

That lesson was learned long ago

Day 201

Today we got back on schedule

And it was an ok day

Got up and went to open gym

Had a Walmart shopping trip

Went to a holiday parade

It was busy

And fun

And felt fairly normal

I didn't feel as tired

Or as sad

Been one week since he left

And it usually takes a week or so to feel back on track

So we're right on schedule

Hopefully we'll just keep up with our schedule

And get busy

And the days will fly by again

Day 200

200 days behind us

Survived 200 days

More days behind us then ahead of us

Who would ever guess 200 could be that great

Its a big number

And there is still a big number ahead of us

But we survived 200

So we can survive more

200 days

Day 199

Another day not feeling quite right

Still feeling off

Still feeling tired

Kids at least are seeming to be getting back on schedule

Next week we'll start our routine again

Thanksgiving break will be over

And normal activities will be back

And hopefully I'll get back in the swing of things again too

First time in a while I've just wanted the holidays done

And spring to come

So my soldier can be home

More than halfway done

Day 198

Today has been one of those days again

So tired

Not really sure why

Kids are off

I am off

Hubby is gone

That's pretty much the story

I know it will pass

But just kind of feels like a fog right now

Just a sad, missing my family type fog

Just keep reminding myself this will get better....

Day 197

Happy Thanksgiving

Daughter's first thanksgiving

Son's third

Hubby missed both of them

Just not the same

I enjoyed seeing my family

I enjoyed eating turkey

I enjoyed the fact that it was a first for my baby

But I missed my husband even more

Day 196

Today my patience has been tested to the limit

I don't know if I've ever wanted a day to be done more

Between the hubby just leaving again

Thanksgiving tomorrow without him

Little sleep due to a crying child

A little boy testing EVERY limit he can

And no one around to help

I felt like breaking down

Several times today

Thank God this day is ending

Although I'm sure there will be a baby crying in a bit

Because that's what kind of day this is

Day 195

First official day without the hubby again

It was a hard day

I am lucky to have awesome friends around me though

Who arranged a playmate so the day flew by

And I got some adult time

I hate asking for help from people

But it sure is nice to have friends around who I don't have to ask

They just know

And those are good friends

Day 194

He is gone again

We are missing him again

We are back to being alone

What a horrible day today is

I'm exhausted

Mentally

Physically

Emotionally

Just tired

And sad

And annoyed

And lonely

And sad

What a horrible day

I hope people never forget the sacrifices we make

So we can have freedom

And that the day to remember soldiers and their families

Is not the holidays

Or veterans day

Or the day if the big coming home party

But everyday in between those days

The everyday

Because that day is the hard day

Day 193

Day 15 R&R visit

Today is the last day

Tomorrow he leaves again

Tomorrow we go back to missing him

And praying for him

And just missing him a whole lot

Today went way to fast

And is ending way to quickly

And I don't know how to get it to slow down

Day 192

Day 14 R&R visit

Today we sniffed up and attended a wedding

I was so proud to be with my family

My two boys looking so handsome in matching shirts

And my beautiful baby girl

I enjoyed our day so much

And will have a wonderful memory when hubby is hone again

What a wonderful day

Day 191

Day 13 R&R visit

Today was a lot of taking it easy

And running errands

And just being together

Then we had some adult time alone tonight

Having dinner

Having some drinks

It was nice to get time alone

And not just be parents for a a while

Day 190

Day 12 R&R visit

Had a wonderful family day

Daddy visited preschool today to talk about being a soldier

My son was so proud of his dad

And so was I

It was also nice to have him be able to be part of something

Since he misses everything else

It was a wonderful day

Day 189

Day 11 R&R visit

Packing

Unpacking

Driving

That was our day

The realization that the visit is coming to an end is hitting

And not in a good way

Day 188

Day 10 R&R visit
Spent our day cleaning up our yard from the large tree my hubby cut down

I believe I will be sore tomorrow

It was an exhausting day

That could have been much more successful without two kids along

But our main goal was successful

And we worked together as a family

And that made it a good day

Day 187

R&R visit day 9

Waterpark fun

Is made less fun by hotel room with 2 kids

And a husband

And a queen size bed

And a 3 year old falling off the bed

A baby that wont stay asleep

And ends up in the bed with me

In the queen size bed when I'm used to a king size

And the ridiculously loud heater

And the group of 13 year olds running and shouting outside the room

Long after I wish I was asleep

Not sure I remember when I slept worse

Tomorrow will be a long day

Day 186

Water park today

Hotel tonight

Followed by more watermark tomorrow

We are all exhausted

The boys are asleep

The girls are up

Only because someone slept through dinner

And is now wide awake because I let her

But I did enjoy my dinner

A fun exhausting day

Day 185

Day 7 R&R visit

Had a normal day today

It felt normal

Hubby spent time using the chainsaw on the dead trees in the yard

I did some cleaning and laundry

Did some errands in town

Going to bed when laundry is done

A normal day

And it was nice

Day 184

Day 6 R&R visit

Today is 11-11-11

It is also veterans day

And I also got to spend it with my soldier instead of missing him

We did some shopping

Had a free meal

And were exhausted by the end of the day

Enough that I gave my 3 year old popcorn for dinner

He enjoyed it

And I'm ready for bed

Day 183

R&R visit day 5

Sometimes while my husband is away

And I'm missing him more than anything

I forget how hard it can be when he comes home again

And now with kids how hard it is to let him in

And for me to step back

And basically just learn to be a family again

And at the same time not wanting to learn to be a whole again

Because he will soon be gone again

Its so hard for him to be gone

And it's so hard for him to be home

And I hate dealing with all of it

Day 182

Back to OUR home tonight

Missed being in our own place

With our entire family here

Minus our dogs

Now the kids are in bed

My husband is asleep

And I have a full glass of wine

And a hot bath running

Heaven on earth

Day 181

Another long day

It was fun for our 3 year old

To be able to share some of his life with his daddy

And fun for daddy too.

Tomorrow we head to our home

To check on everything

And spend a few days in our own stomping ground

Should be good

Day 180

Day 2 R&R

Typical try to pack as many things as possible into one day kind of day

Felt like we were going going going all day long

And really we were

Starting at 4am with the baby's wake up time

Until midnight when she finally went to sleep for the night

We were a little off schedule today

If that wasn't already obvious

I'm tired

And happy

And really tired

Day 179

R&R day 1

A lot if sleeping today

Not for me

For husband that traveled for 4545 hours straight

It was officially day one if the visit

And it was wonderful

Day 178

He's home!!!!!!!!!

Day 177

Less then 24 hours

And I will be with my husband

This time tomorrow

I will be next to him

Seems unreal

Seems like its not actually going to happen

I'm am so excited and happy

And just ready to have my family be whole again

Even for a short while

so ready to see his face

Day 176

It all started with a chip

seems innocent enough

Wrong

Picture this

3 year old drops a child

Dog eats it

Not even a whole chip mind you

A PIECE of a chip

Start meltdown

Over a CHIP

I'm talking about a potato chip

Crying, screaming, crying, crying

Threats from mommy

Stop crying, this is ridiculous, just eat another chip"

"It's NOT diculous!"

"Just take another one, its not that big of deal"

"It IS big deal"

Crying, screaming, crying screaming

Bring him down to his room and tell him he can come back when he's done crying

Comes back up

Crying continues

Tell him to stop

And he hits me

Off to timeout

hysterical crying and screaming continue in timeout

Followed by peeing his pants he is crying so hard

UN-BE-LEV-ABLE

THe day continued much the same

Thank the Lord for bedtime

He's not asleep yet but lets all pray its not that far away

Like I said

We just need to forget this day and move on to the next

and perhaps have a stiff drink

Day 175

4 days and counting

Getting ready

sort of

I would like to be getting ready

But I still have no clue where or when he will be home

He is very non chalant about "he'll know in a couple days"

As he assured me he will be home in a "few days"

Oh, ok...I feel better now

I guess he's forgetting I'm towing a 3 year old and 8 month around with me

And planning ahead is sort of my thing

I guess that is the military for you though

I do prefer to not be running around last minute though

But either way its a "few" more days

And our family will be together

Day 174

Getting ready for a hubby visit

Got most of the monthly bills paid

Got a wedding gift ordered

Did some laundry loads

Clipped the dogs nails

Made an attempt at cleaning and organizing

Made it to my dentist appointment

Getting my 3 year old in tomorrow

2 weeks are coming

And I'm spending the entire time

Doing nothing but spending time with my husband

So ready and excited!