Day 344

Why do days go so slowly when you are waiting for something so wonderful? This past year has actually gone pretty fast we've been so crazy busy and been doing so much It's barely left me time to think Let alone, sleep, eat or have time to myself I can thank 2 children for that gift There were days that were hard And days that went slow But looking back the year really did fly by But now, waiting on this last week The time is CRAWLING by I wonder why thats how life works? I guess the best things in life are worth waiting for even if its a long ass time

Day 343

Play, play, play pack, pack, pack stress, stress, stress That about sums up our day we are counting days and trying to get things together and its a crazy mess right now but it will be worth it in a very short time In a maximum of 5 days time to be exact

Day 342

Well today was our first official morning without nursing My daughter's choice, not mine She was good with a substitute of dry cereal in a bowl and mickey mouse The same substitute my son had I was super happy and super sad She's been depending on me for over a year now, no bottles And so far so good Never would have thought I'd be attached to my child so much for over a year Now that its coming to an end I have mixed feelings But that's life and I'm glad she's doing it on her own and i have the patience to let her And I don't think I'll hate freedom again

Day 341

Today was the best day

Today I received a text message

and a phone call

from my husband's cell phone

and when it has been almost a year since that happened

It makes it a pretty special day

Who know a little text

and a 2 minute conversation

could mean so much?

a wife of a deployed soldier

who hasn't seen the number on her caller id for almost a year

knows how special that is

we are so close now

I'm so excited

and nervous

and stressed

and scared

and happy

and did i say excited???

7 more days (possible 6)

Day 340

Rain, rain go away

PLEASE go away until another day

Stuck inside with kids all day

While it rains all day long

Is not my idea of fun

We did actually go to church and sunday school today

but afternoons get so long when we have nothing to do

But really we have a million things to do

I'm just choosing not to think of those things

We have our usual week of school and activities

Plus packing for a trip to Duluth

Plus a shopping trip at some point

That I'm sure will be way to expensive

ANd most importantly

Getting ready for a homecoming a year in the making

The first wave of troops came home today

Which of course does not include us

We never luck out with that type of stuff

Usually he's the first to go

and the last to come home

Not sure how that works

But thats always what has happened

Either way this week will fly by

And crawl along as slow as can be

8 more days (possibly 7)

Day 339

To make up for our rainy day yesterday

we had a beautiful day today

we spent quite a bit of it outside

because in a few days it is predicted that we will get snow

we're all a little sunburned tonight

because mommy forgot that when you where less clothes and stay out playing in the sun

it is possible to get burned

Even in April

But we were all dirty and tired

and like I've said before

those are the best kind of days

we talked to our soldier this morning

who was in the best mood I've seen him in in a year

So I'm thinking he is about ready to make the trip back into the states

which means we have about a week before we see him

9 more days...POSSIBLY 8

Day 338

Rainy and cold was our day today

Just one of those type days

And of course it just rained from time to time

and who would guess that I think we happened to be outside going somewhere

During every one of those little rain showers

My children spent the day trying to drive me insane

and came close to succeeding

Luckily wine saved the day

Never fails

10 more days....

Day 337

Finally it was nice enough to leave the house for a bit

and be outside

We weren't out much

Due to some preschool time

But an hour or so felt good

And got out some good energy

and I had to cherish the moment

because tomorrow is suppose to be rain and thunderstorms

and that is not something I am looking forward too

We'll have to be creative with our time tomorrow

so mommy doesn't go stir crazy

or I'll just resort to lots of cartoons

cartoons are good too.

Plus only 11 more days!!

Day 336

Today we got exhausted to the limit

Swimming all morning apparently does that to kids

My baby spent the whole the walking all around

And I believe my son's energy left during our time in the big pool

when he spent the entire time in a panic mode of drowning

Despite the fact that he was wearing a life jacket

hanging on to me

and telling me how much fun he was having

his flailing arms and legs spoke differently

and desperate attempts to catch his breath

But I guess what ever tires them out works for me

we came home to a 3 hour nap

and a 2 hour nap

and lots of school work done

totally worth a crazy morning or swimming with 2 kids

and they still both went to bed awesome

I'd say that is an equally awesome day

12 more of them to go!

Day 335

A fairly drama free day

and it was very welcome

Just a normal, go to school

GO to ecfe type of day

And the best news of all today

Was the number 13

as in 13 days

13 days until we are welcoming home a much missed man

A husband

and father

Finally the end is way in sight

finally we can start the being a family again process

finally

335 days in waiting

and 13 more to go

Day 334

I feel like I can't even concentrate because of my psycho in laws

I'm trying my best, but I've had words with my sister in law today

And it is taking everything in me to keep my cool and act like an adult in my messages

Everything is better to the person who takes the high road

And I have to remember that

I will be the bigger person

I will be the bigger person

I will be the bigger person

If I say it enough, maybe I'll remember it :-)

Day 333

Happy Easter

And happy last holiday without my hubby

I'm still fuming about last night

ANd still on edge

But we had a great day anyway

And I got to spill my guts to my husband which helped

And I got to get angry all over again because his sister somehow got involved

ANd claims she wants nothing to do with him

Which I am not extremely sad about anyway

But I'm just going to deal with what I need to

And make sure my husband gets home safe

ANd then brace myself for the impact of craziness that will hit in his family upon that happening

Seriously...

all i know now is that my children will never be around this crap

that we will break the crazy cycle from his family

and thank GOD for that

Day 332

Wow

That's all I have to say about my in-laws

I'm not just complaining

Like normal, annoying in law drama

I'm saying I was straight up attacked by my mother in law and her husband

(not physically, verbally)

I have never seen anything like it

Especially not directed at me

If I had all night I'd write about why

But I don't have that kind of time

ALl I know is it is getting harder and harder to be the stand in for my husband

And I am so glad that I just have a few short weeks before he is home

I was shaking I was so upset and angry

And all I need now is to talk to my husband

Which I can't because he has shitty internet

So instead I'll have a glass of wine or two

And try to calm my self down

By reminding myself

That you can't fix stupid

ANd man...there would be a lot of fixing going on in that family if you could

Day 331

Today we had an all day playmate

with the granddaughter of my mom's friend

My son loved every minute

and there was no fighting so it was wonderful

I had both kids miss naps

which is not ideal for me

but I also have both kids passed out pretty early

So I guess that makes up for it

I also watched my baby grow up before my eyes this morning

She walked everywhere

She drank from a straw

and she blew her nose when asked

where is my baby going???

So proud of her

and so very sad that my baby is starting to no longer be a baby

Day 330

Today I got to meet a new baby

But most importantly I got to catch up with my oldest besets friend

And it was such a nice time

Being back at her parent's house

brought me back to the high school days

when I sat in the very same house

talking about boys, and music, and friends

Instead we were talking about babies

and jobs

and husbands

and turning 30

slightly different

but just as awesome

Day 329

TOday we played at the park ALL day

Literally all day

We woke up and got ready for the day

ANd left for the park

Ate lunch at the park

Came home for some nap time/school work time

ANd then left for the park again

My kids were zonked out for nap

And they are both out cold now

And I'm hoping they stay that way

were keeping up our new countdown to daddy being home

and the days are getting fewer and fewer

although I've already heard twice that its been pushed back a few days

so again I have to remember

I don't believe he's home, until I see his face

But I should be seeing that face REAL soon

Day 328

A last of a busy day

Preschool

ECFE class

Lunch/nap/school work

ECFE class

driving into town

and back

and into town

and back

and into town

and back

Glad it was the last of my son's classes

Glad I get my kids to all these activities

Glad summer is coming where activities are getting to be less

Day 327

THe three year old strikes again

Not sure what the phase is we are going through right now

but I hope its over soon

Leaving open gym today was accompanied by screaming and crying and dragging out

again

flashback to yesterday

he is usually so good and such a good helper

but when it was clean up time today

he threw him self on the floor screaming "NO, No cleaning up, I'm still playing!"

THen he laid down on a mat and refused to get up or help

so he was dragged to the table where he continued to cry and scream

refused to put on his coat

and then screamed to put it on as we were leaving

I love 3 year olds and their attitudes

Day 326

Oh the joys of 3 year olds

Church set me up for failure today

Instead of a casual, out at the table and chairs first service

It was in the sanctuary

It was just singing

or watching for us

and it was extra long

oh, and there was no one in the nursery to save me from horribly behaving children

it was disaster from the beginning

neither child would sit still

or be quiet

and when he left to head toward sunday school

I was suddenly met with a screaming, crying 3 year old throwing a huge fit

in church

luckily there was singing going on inside so his tantrum wasn't hear by all

He refused to go to sunday school

taking the wrong bait from my ultimatum by choosing to go home for nap instead of attend sunday school

but i had to follow through

so we left church before it ever ended

without attending sunday school

and screaming and crying the whole way

did I mention it was right at this moment that my 1 year old had an explosive diaper

all over her cute little church dress?

Just added to the whole experience

wine please